back to normal

and hello world.

will be the second last working day today, before noon i hafto return this so called good companion laptop.

and i cant wait to fly back to uni. to tell the truth, i like it there.

what actually make a lady,.. A LADY? ( too sad ‘girl’ sounds childish to me )

Even a lady can’t answer. its a complexity of identity. bwergh, i hope im just….simple. but im not. today i say i like this and that, but after a while, because of some crisis and the emo worsen things up, i finally changed my mind. Sometimes, my species just need a person who is kind enough to console and fix things up, and it makes me much happier.

i took part in 2 mock interview, they provide feedback and give comment. i feel so much confident about any interviews in the future because a week a go, i have no clue how is it like to be interviewed for a job. I simply answer eventhough it does not really a good answer, but just answer it as in u understand what are they trying to ask because silence can make the air too cold to breath.

anyway, siapa tahu sy akan redah saja hidup sebagai auditor in big 4. haha.

“orang muda…tak pikir panjang…” sounds familiar???

hehe.

Regards

talk fish!

i am a bit curious for things that doesnt happen yet..

dilemma and all

what makes a good decision then?…haishhh..

hey i hate selfishness.

byk bende nk cerr tapi tak cukup mase

bye KL. i hate yuhs.. i miss Notts and tak mahu pulang KL lagi. benci. emo

road not taken

To travel by public transport during peak hours is a nightmare.

I think LRT and commuters should have open air coach and cover it only during rainy days. brilliant idea, kan? barula bole bernafas sket…hey add more coaches lah per trip. sitty, i hate to be cramped like that and redha je jadi karipap.

I still havent get any job allocation yet, but at least i have a laptop and internet connection which becomes my lifeline at the moment despite a few sites have been blocked in d office.

Okay, 2 weeks auditing in one of Sime Darby subsidiaries is crazy.

I think i get myself really clear that..THAT IS HOW AUDITORS WORK. catching datelines with unexpected pattern of working hours. guess what, it is soooo  not my in cup of tea. chasing clients for documents, to keep annoy them, asking question and vouching thousands of invoices. I reached hme after 2200 everyday and wake up at 600. pathetic, uh?

and i think i got a better idea. to finish ACCA or other professional paper in one year time i.e full timecourse, then only to work 3 years to get certified. Mybe in commerce, mybe serving the govt, mybe to apply as exec at Sime Darby because one of my client there suggested me to apply there..

Me: Akak, tensen tak keje sini..

Kakak: No lahh..ok je

Me: Sy apply sini bole?

Kakak: Ha boleh, property nak pakai byk org..awak apply la jdi exec bile dah grad tahun depan

Me: oh ye..gud2..sy tanak la jd auditor, penat..

Kakak: ye2, sy pun nasihat kan awak jangan jd auditor..nti suami awak lari

LOL…bgs btul nasihat die~~

Ppl tht work there are really nice, i love the environment, the air in ther is very different frm pwc. in pwc, from my qick observation, ppl hv no time to even to look at each other, borak skjp and laugh a bit. all serious work.

I am pretty sure with this. I enjoy working in my own office, less inter personal communication but that criteria can’t be met by audit industry. so, bye bye.

Setiap hari aku lihat robot robot yg terkejar ke sana sini entah untuk apa. harta agaknye. adakah harta benar2 boleh buat mereka gembira?

i dun mind giving up glamour and status to be happy with love ones. iA.

hidupku sebuah cerekarama

bear with me coz i love CEREKARAMA.

I just got wireless connection in this house so i am more than happy. Boredom no more and i don’t even mind if i didnt hang out during weekend. Cool huh?

And i watched cerekarama last night with my hsemates instead of going out for Midnight movie that can be very tempting since Mid Valley is just 5 stations away from my house. Beat that, haha. Ok i tak tgk movie lgsg since balik and tak teringin pon sbb dah ade youtube. peace bro!

Okay, Jalan Pintas Ke Neraka is soooo typical malay drama..perempuan kene ayat situ sini terus je cair. And i hate that part. Why haa? Okay girls, what makes you melt? SWEET TALKS..really? hey strangers, dont try it on me cause it doesnt work and makes me want to puke. then you’ll realised one big blue mark on your face once you holding up the mirror. mwahaha. kejam sungguh aku ini. ok im just kidding..Referring back to the drama..the couple has a daughter and old lady in the house as maid.

By the way, learning that i might or might not be an auditor, which is quite stressful with heavy workload especially during peak period, doing all the stock count, visiting clients place and yada yda..i am so worried if i should have maid at home, but bare in mind, i ll do all the cookings and cleanings except the part that she has to take care of the childrens during daytime cause nursery doesnt sound appealing enough to me. And i want old lady from kampung yang can take position in the house as ‘nenek’ for the childrens and for me to refer to regarding family matters. Doesnt it sound interesting? Yang macam Kak Yam dalam cerite Orked tuu. [ a malay movie ]…So, basically, i want to make her as part of the family. But the problem now is..macam mane nk cariii..should start cari calon now when balik kampung. mueehahaha.

Stressnye fikir bende nih..stress stress.

Sooner or later, i have to learn that I am a careerwoman that has to be smart enough to take care and handle pools of people and environment that need me.

Argh stress lagi.

hahahahahaha.

auditor maybe?

Now i got the rough picture how auditors work. They go to the clients’ office MOST of the time. The fact that i hate socialising is one thing. But hmmm.

I better pray so that i love the jobs.

So far being in ********* is quite fun, great location, great people, great WORKLOAD maybe? Especially when they brief about referencing and documentation..

7 weeks to go.

Am i gonna join them nxt yr in Assurance line?

I want to work in my own office, not clients’ office. haha. berangan la kamuu.

why

whts wrong wif me..slalu laa buat bende yg risky and bahaya..isk isk

I dont like to ask favor from others..Tak suke mintak tlg..

And tak suke menyusahkan hidup org lain.

And end up being so independent and just rely on “Bismillahi tawakkal tu A’lallah”

Takut pun ade…tpi nk buat camnee….ish…

Doa2 la ye smg selamat..Amin

Its not easy to be me.

relieved

AIS (Accounting Info System) is playing joke or what? . Y know d fact that i spotted d wrong question and i taram one question out of 2, but guess what? surprise surprise…AIS scored highest marks of all, and its a first class mark. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah..This semester marks turned out to be better then last semester. Another surprise. I guess i need to work extra hard next yr to pull up to first class overall mark. But in case i only manage to get 2:1, i am more than happy and grateful. I feel lucky enough not to have to re-sit bcs i am pretty scared if i fail AIS.

O Allah, Grant us 1st class, Amin….

And hey, i just finished touring London with Kak Aisyah and it was a great one. 2 times meal at NANDO’s, 2 times breakfast with MSD Nasi Lemak, Subway’s Halal Outlet with Superb Meat Marinara. Lepas geram sbb seminggu makan tak tentu hala. Oh I feel really good.

Kak Aisyah, if u happen to read this, I am all alone here at the airport without your company, and we went separate ways this morning..Akak balik notts, sy ke airport, sob sob…Hope to see you again some time in d future and i miss youuu already. Tak sempat beli card utk each other!! Jgn sedey2, syahdu2 and jangan byk dilemma ok!! I hope and pray the best for your future. Do come again here bile honeymoon kee.. ahaha.

Ok, mahu smbg sinderela, ezora dsb.. =)

 

loved by You

I cant stop feeling so lucky and grateful. Being loved by You, o Allah. Played tht previous entry song several times today, I just cant describe it by word. We are just lucky despite risky but most memorable trip to Cliff of Moher.

“Biaselah orang muda…” hehe.

Driving about 10 hours in 24 hours time from dublin to galway to and fro, is something that i never think tht i would do, but it happened ;).., S.O.S moment di galway city centre when the front screen was terribly misty, 2,3,4 am thru dark routes, sleeping inside d car somewhere we dont even know the place is called, …is scarry. BUT it pays off with such a great place, Cliffs of Moher…UUuuuuUUuuu..i wont do that again..with manual car. I dunno how many times i/we prayed so that we will make it and Allah telah memberi perlindunganNya buat kami. Subhanallah…

Jalan yg gelap di pedalaman at 12-3 in the morning is scary, but big thank you for d girlfriends for accompanying me by not falling asleep and make jokes during the journey.

Such a memorable and full of lesson trip. I love it! I love it!

Thats what they say as “Belajar Dari Pengalaman”……and its a wonderful pengalaman seumur hidup kami…

Great company, KakSya and Yana..;)

cinta padaMu

ok..i decided not to bother and to interfere with their problems..

anyway..im leaving tonite to Ireland this time with my 2 girlfriends..uuu tak sabarnye..and asma is going back home tomorrow..enjoy yourself and have a safe journey, mate…tinggalla daku di sini menanti detik utk pulang, whee..

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Ya Allah Engkau sumber bahagia
Engkaulah Sumber keselamatan
Ya Allah Engkau sumber keamanan
Engkaulah segalanya

Ya Allah Engkaulah pelindungku
Engkaulah sumber rizkiku
Di waktu sakit Kau sembuhkan
Di waktu lapar Kau beri makan

Ya Allah Engkau Cinta Agungku
Cintaku haraplah dibalas
Ya Allah Engkau Cinta Agungku
Janganlah cintaku tidak dibalas

Jangan biarkan ku tanpa pimpinan
Pimpinlah aku ke jalan yang benar
Kepada Engkaulah harapanku
Janganlah hampakan perasaanku

ouh..tadi ade seorg kawan punye status bg link to this song..very touching, kan? perasaan seorang manusia yg menagih simpati dari tuhannya..i dunno somtimes i feel a bit too far from Him but i prayed ya Allah, peganglah hatiku agar sentiasa tidak jauh dariMu..aku takut menjadi org yg lupa padaMu.

there are always complicated things in life..but i believe He is always there for me. I have lots and lots of problems to cater, my emotional state can be up or down, but when i think about Him, the Most Merciful, i feel relieved..there are sooo much blessings from him that i tried to count but i lose  ..every time i face difficulties..its like simpulan tali yg berselirat, He will solve it for me..satu per satu and sometimes i just overlooked.

Ive turned into a different person, ive turned into someone who is always positive. And i am happy now. Byk ketenangan dan kegembiraan yg diperoleh lately. He brought me ppl that can cheer me, who i can trust and enjoy her/their company. I feel loved by You, Ya Allah.

Peliharalah aku dr perbuatan yg Engkau murkai. Amin.

 

Pilih

what should i do..i pity him, and i hate what she did to him. but both i love, which one should  i support now?

HIM or HER?

Am I an adult now? How do adult cater this kind of thing agaknya? ouch..pening. Am i old enough to settle the problem of adults’ world?

But i really think what he’s doing right now is the best way to cater, so i am soooo gonna stand by him. Make her learn..make she and konco konconye learnn..tapi kejam sgt ke bgitu..even its only for being silent?

I still wish you’re around, when u gone, i feel like my knees are broken, how can we stand by ourselves ?

It aches..

Adakah aku masih bermimpi…